In this world,
This land of freedom,
Society oppresses,
Hope is dead,
Love is empty
In this world,
This land of opportunity,
The smart are left homeless,
The pretty are famous,
Degrees mean nothing
In this world,
This land of plenty,
Food is left rotting,
When life is left starving,
appreciation is void
In this world.
This world of friends,
Backstabbers rule,
secrets are open,
lonely left broken
In this world,
This fake world,
Media controls us.
Thursday, 18 December 2014
Sunday, 26 October 2014
Wednesday, 24 September 2014
If you could see me now
If you could see me now. After everything we went through, after everything you did to me. After all the darkness and the misery. If you could see how I've changed. How I smile.
The darkness won't always be there, even in the lowest times when you may feel all is lost, it will ease soon. It may be years before it does but it always eases, it won't be easy but keep fighting never give up. You'll lose people along the way but they are meant to be lost. They weren't worth staying.
Once you get through it your life becomes a million times better, you start to see the brightness where it wasn't previously, you see the little things and when the little issues and upsets come up they feel like nothing because you have had worse. So trust me it gets better.
But you need to help yourself, you need to accept you are in shit and get off the floor and help yourself. It wont get better on its own, no matter how much you wish.
The darkness won't always be there, even in the lowest times when you may feel all is lost, it will ease soon. It may be years before it does but it always eases, it won't be easy but keep fighting never give up. You'll lose people along the way but they are meant to be lost. They weren't worth staying.
Once you get through it your life becomes a million times better, you start to see the brightness where it wasn't previously, you see the little things and when the little issues and upsets come up they feel like nothing because you have had worse. So trust me it gets better.
But you need to help yourself, you need to accept you are in shit and get off the floor and help yourself. It wont get better on its own, no matter how much you wish.
Monday, 15 September 2014
Disabilities
I was on a bus today, I chose to sat in the seat labelled ''please offer this seat if a disabled person needs it'' Bearing in mind there 4 other seats labelled this all free a older lady behind me started saying ''that lady shouldn't sit there'' and so on about how I must be a terrible teenager, like all teens.
Firstly I would like to comment how it said ''please offer'', therefore I have every right to use it. If a disabled person had got on and the 4 other seats were full I would have offered. This does not mean I cannot sit there when there is no one needing them.
Secondly, I used to be a competitive gymnast. High level. Then when I was 10 I suffered a back injury that seized up my lower back, leaving me with very limited movement down there and pain in my upper back which has to compensate. I still do recreational gymnastics to attempt to increase my movement in my lower back as well as trampolining and martial arts (All low level at the moment). All sports which increase strength and flexibility which I need. I do not walk with a hunch or a crutch. However daily I get extricating back pains which, despite their slow improvement, still require me to take strong painkillers for. Its not a recognized disability by the government because I try my hardest to get on with life. So when I sit on the first seat on a bus I see, its because of this.
A disability is not always obvious to the eye and with this lady judging me because I am a teenager and because I am younger and therefore ''must be healthier'' I felt like shit. People like her may feel to themselves they are in the right and showing justice but they aren't they do not know my life and for her to judge me this way is a horrible thing to do. If someone got on the bus who was worse than me I would get up, I know how it feels to not be able to sit when you really need to. People like them who blame all teenagers for being the same terrible people, assuming all of us are healthy, are the real issue with the world.
I don't always get this riled up, but sometimes the world is just too fucking naive.
Firstly I would like to comment how it said ''please offer'', therefore I have every right to use it. If a disabled person had got on and the 4 other seats were full I would have offered. This does not mean I cannot sit there when there is no one needing them.
Secondly, I used to be a competitive gymnast. High level. Then when I was 10 I suffered a back injury that seized up my lower back, leaving me with very limited movement down there and pain in my upper back which has to compensate. I still do recreational gymnastics to attempt to increase my movement in my lower back as well as trampolining and martial arts (All low level at the moment). All sports which increase strength and flexibility which I need. I do not walk with a hunch or a crutch. However daily I get extricating back pains which, despite their slow improvement, still require me to take strong painkillers for. Its not a recognized disability by the government because I try my hardest to get on with life. So when I sit on the first seat on a bus I see, its because of this.
A disability is not always obvious to the eye and with this lady judging me because I am a teenager and because I am younger and therefore ''must be healthier'' I felt like shit. People like her may feel to themselves they are in the right and showing justice but they aren't they do not know my life and for her to judge me this way is a horrible thing to do. If someone got on the bus who was worse than me I would get up, I know how it feels to not be able to sit when you really need to. People like them who blame all teenagers for being the same terrible people, assuming all of us are healthy, are the real issue with the world.
I don't always get this riled up, but sometimes the world is just too fucking naive.
Sunday, 14 September 2014
Beauty
I'm not the typical type of beautiful, I don't look stunning to a normal eye. I'm tall, wide shouldered, sure I am skinny but more athletic than model. But I used to look in the mirror and think ''yeh you're okay, you are you''. I've never been chosen for a friends photography model or by a guy to obsess over. It's normally my personality that shines through but its wearing down. Slowly its wearing me down to see beautiful photos of everyone you know, but not being worthy.
The unknown poem
The steps into the unknown are usually the worst ones, but I've never normally been scared of them. The world has usually been kind to me. Yet this weekend will change everything.
Have you ever lean't on someone,
Held someone,
Loved someone,
Have you ever been lean't on by someone,
Held by someone,
Loved by someone,
Have you a bruised soul,
Fixed in a blinding miracle,
Brought you so close,
Now to go so far,
Physically miles apart,
Mentally... who knows,
Who knows what this brings,
Will he stay,
Will he leave,
Will he find another,
Another to lean on,
Another to hold,
Another to love.
Have you ever lean't on someone,
Held someone,
Loved someone,
Have you ever been lean't on by someone,
Held by someone,
Loved by someone,
Have you a bruised soul,
Fixed in a blinding miracle,
Brought you so close,
Now to go so far,
Physically miles apart,
Mentally... who knows,
Who knows what this brings,
Will he stay,
Will he leave,
Will he find another,
Another to lean on,
Another to hold,
Another to love.
Saturday, 13 September 2014
Note
I need to rewrite certain aspects of greed. I hope you don't mind, the previous chapters were lacking in the right information you needed to know and I needed to continue the plot. As it is its going to take too long to get to the 'fun part'. So a desperate re-arrangement is in order.
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